My first week resume work

After a long confinement leave, i was finally back to my workstation on 07.07.2009 Tuesday. I am having a hard time in juggling between my family and also work. The most difficult part is handling Carmen, including of sending and fetching her to and from school. She tends to throw tantrum before and after school, while i am pretty busy when return to office. Hopefully, she will be getting better soon.

I have over a thousand of mails to read through once report in office. Well, i finally finished up reading all my mails on the second day back to work, and from the third day onwards, i am deemed fit and ready to go out for sales call. I do hope that i can adjust myself to suits the working environment and family issues.

I am in a very confuse state, whereby, thinking of to quit or not to quit my current job, stay home to be a full time housewife. Hubby did suggest to me that i no longer need to work, stay at home to take care of both of our kids, Carmen and Jeanne. He will hire a maid for me, but, i rejected his proposal, as i want to work till next Chinese New Year, before i decide on my next move. If really hubby wants a third baby (will be our last baby), then, most probably i will resign after giving birth on our third baby, latest by third baby reaching 6 months.

I am really in dillemma when i hear Carmen cries, not wanting to go to school. Even in her sleep, she will dream and even talk in her sleep about not wanting to go to school! She has phobia going to school, but the teacher was saying that she is a well-behaved girl in school, a fast learner, and stay very active at school.I think maybe i should spend more time with her to let her familiarized with her school environment? Or i just simply do not spend enough time to prepare her mentally and phisically to school? What else can i do?

Baby Jeanne is also another issue that worries me. She tends to cry a lot, and i dare not to become fulltime mother to take care of her, as she is not easy to handle. I hope that she will improve in the next few months as she grows. I am happy to see her growing from week to week. She tends to gain weight and always giving us her sweet smiles nowadays!